everywhere.

Holy cow I'm just everywhere tonight! So the other day I found out that I'm really anemic, and it makes my body soooo weak. Can I tell you how hard it is when my body just wants to move and it simply can't? I was in bed for a week and should still be. Today though I had to go and get a vitamin B12 shot, that's supposed to give me enough of a boost to get through the last two weeks of the semester. So far so good. I'm still wicked weak and tired, but I can get more done this way. I don't know if that has anything to do with it, but I am absolutely everywhere!! I finally got up and to the ceramics studio, but I lost my rings there! Hopefully I left them in my locker, but I don't remember for sure, because as I was leaving was a little after I should have taken my ritalin. Them I just felt weird for the rest of the night. Since my medicine started wearing off, I started falling back into all of my self doubt and frustration inside, that seems to take over on some of my not as good nights. So I cried... a good amount. I just got completely overwhelmed with the good and bad things going on, and my thoughts were racing and confusing and everywhere. I bounced back fairly quick. Now I've been on my laptop for a couple of hours just surfing and now blogging. Oh man I have not been able to keep still!! I'm so tired and my body is soooooo exhausted... and my brain won't turn off.... gah! I'm just everywhere... I should try and go to sleep now but I dunno if I could if I wanted to. There is just so much going through my brain right now. I'm having to try really hard to type this up... it's getting frustrating, so I will probably be done soon... I keep hitting the wrong keys and then having to go back and re-write the same sentence 2 or 3 times... I'm getting wicked frustrated. Especially all these songs that I keep hearing that bring back really painful and vivid memories. Oh boy I need to stop before I push myself. I feel so everywhere and it's driving me crazy right now, especially since I'm completely exhausted... ok, the end.