silver lining

every cloud has a silver lining right? well i'm starting to find my silver lining. Having ADHD is not easy, it never has been an probably never will be. But i'm starting to find good things, I'm learning to focus all my energy in more positive directions... most of the time ;). I figured out that to a certain extent i can take control of my ability to hyper-focus! I can sit down and do a project for 8 hours straight if i have too! Sometimes without even realizing it, but I can use my hyper-focus almost like a super power! Also all this extra energy comes in handy with late nights and long days. not to mention it makes me quirky :) I'm think I've accepted it, and it still has its hard days, long nights and emotional roller coastering, but i'm getting there.

It's been too long!!

So I haven't been on here or on any of my blogs all semester!! That's just how crazy it's been!! I'm just recovering from a broken collar bone, due to a freak skateboarding accident 2 weeks into the semester! There would be way to much for me to try to cover in just one blog, or all at once! For one thing I'm finally starting to feel like myself again! Being so badly injured really takes a toll on you and you don't even realize it until you start to feel like yourself again. Granted I'm exhausted from homework and have a perpetual headache from so much work on the computer, but I'll get over it! It's so good to start feeling like myself again :)
Lately I've been having a hard time trying to get my roommate to listen to me about what I know about myself and about my adhd. She's such a sweetheart, and I know she's just trying to help me out, but we disagree about a few things when it comes to this subject. But I guess as long as I do what I know is good for myself, and stay open to and take the good advise from people, then I'll be alright. Plus I've had to really, really hard semesters in a row now! And hopefully I'll get a break being off this coming semester.
So I'm starting to slowly learn to use some of my adhd to my advantage. I have discovered the advantage and power that come with the ability to hyperfocus!! It's amazing to feel myself going into hyperfocus! It's like nothing can stop me!! I'm so blessed sometimes to be able to do such amazing things with the mind that I've been blessed with! Also, my roommates think that I'm crazy going on so little sleep for so long, and I mean, I don't want too, but I have like back-up stores of energy.
It's so weird how much being injured can affect everything in your life! I'm just getting over a broken collar bone and surgery for it... it really takes a toll, and I didn't realize how much it was breaking me down until I started getting better and started feeling like myself again!
Today I ran out of ritalin halfway through my day and I was on campus trying to do work, somehow I managed to really hyperfocus in on my work and get quite a bit done, and I'm absolutely exhausted, but I have so much energy! It's an odd sensation. I should probably go and try to get some sleep cuz I have a long day tomorrow...